mental health

Volatile. Fickle. Explosive. I would describe myself using either one of those words during the hours of intense anxiety I suffer now and then. Thank goodness the episodes have become much less frequent (thank God for anti-depressants) but I still manage to frighten myself a bit when I reach the point of utter terror and feel like I can no longer control my own mind. Anxiety is an old “friend” I play hide and seek with; I try to keep it at bay with being social online, keeping my mind occupied so the door remains closed – the door that allows anxiety to creep in and change me into an altogether different person.



Last night anxiety got the better of me and I entered into a place where I get truly scared. Kurt tried to calm me and as good as he is at that task after years of practice, he didn’t succeed last night. I just kept getting worse until I finally got so exhausted, I passed out from it. It sounds truly horrible and make no mistake, there’s nothing as frightening as feeling out of control when it comes to your own mind ; I especially hate the numbness of the hands. It’s like my body takes over and I am just in there

I have always been a strong advocate for social change and improving the lives of others through service to the community. It is my sincere belief that if everyone applied themselves and decided to work on whatever difficulties are holding them back in life, while simultaneously keeping an eye on working for the greater good, that in fact the world could become a much better place. In fact, speaking globally, it is entirely possible to end war, poverty, and provide for everyone’s needs with some leftovers for entertainment. However, the real trick is convincing people that is in fact possible, and that is precisely what I am going to do for you today in this article.

However, rather than making the issue very complicated and trying to address all the different personal struggles that hold people back in life, I will simply speak from the perspective of those suffering from social anxiety disorder.

The first point to raise in regard to social anxiety disorder, is that we, and especially those who are suffering intensely, spend excessive amounts of time engaging in pointless activity that does no one any good. I know this because when my social anxiety was at a high, that is precisely one of the ways I coped with it (see My Social Anxiety has Reduced – What is Next?

The demonic spirit replied, "How stupid you are! There are no relationships here!  People are completely wrapped up in themselves, constantly regretting and mourning the sins they have committed. It is like a cemetery."